when today

i flow. he said. i don't make long plans. i live my days, one at a time. i don't bother myself with long thoughts on something. i go by impulse. it is myself who makes the calls. not my head. you can say that i have a good instinct. so what is your target, your purpose in life. i asked him. my target, now, is to survive this day. my purpose is by surviving today. i can see tommorrow. well that's a nice picture i thought. you live your day, today, just to see tommorrow. and so on. and so forth. i wish that i can be like you. i said. what's stopping you. he said. myself. i just can't see myself letting go all those marks left by events in my days. i'm a very sentimental person. once you're caught in the web. you're dead. he said. don't cling on the past. he said. you'll never go forward. you have to move on. i stop. i feel my heart beat. and suddenly i realise. i was suppose to be on my way to someplace. these feet are stomping to take me there. but i have forgotten my destination completely.